Understanding

Sometimes, it’s really hard to understand the way people feel about others. For instance, I don’t understand how my mom can still love my annoying brother. Of course I’m only kidding. The main difficulty in my life is trying to get people to understand my love for Adam Young from Owl City. To me, he’s not just another person. In my eyes, he’s as close to perfect as you can get. And finally, after years of trying to convince people how much I love him, I simply have to accept the fact that no one does. I wonder why I spent so much time updating my Facebook status and Twitter to lyrics from his songs or fangirling over him by myself, since I don’t know anyone who lives near me who shares the love for him like I do. I draw his name over everything and even base my answers to problems because of him; one of those “What would Adam do?” There really are no words to describe how much I love him, it is literally impossible. There are not enough character spaces on Microsoft Word to explain. To me, it doesn’t matter how much Adam Young stuff you have; sure I have TONS. But it’s about what you tell yourself inside and how you act. I have already proven to myself that I am extremely obsessed and I realized it has gone far, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to change anything. Being a teenager is really hard, but Adam’s music was there for me when others weren’t. It’s one of those things that you have to experience in order to understand. I face life everyday knowing that I’m an outcast and I was never proud of myself, until that one day I heard Fireflies on my friend’s iPod before they played it on the radio. I just had to hear more of him. And now look at me; I can’t go a day without listening to him. Sure, other people might be in my situation. But no one will understand my problems down to a T. That’s the reason why I love Adam so much. He’s a Christian, so full of optimism, and absolutely gorgeous. He makes me feel better no matter what the issues are. And if you’re reading this, you’re probably thinking I’m some psycho-fan, but you truly don’t understand my feelings for him. And one day, I hope to look him in the eyes and have him see my tears fall and tell him how much of a positive impact he has made on my life. He is one of the most important people in my life and no matter WHAT you tell me, I will always be that shy girl in the corner reading a book and listening to his music. I will be the one that cries her eyes out at his concerts and who could talk your ears off about him non-stop, yet not say a word in school. And for once in my life, I’m proud of who I am and how Adam changed my life forever. So, Mr. Young, if you ever read this, I would be forever greatful and pretty embarrassed. I might not ever know it, but if I did, I would be shaking like a wet dog in the middle of a winter blizzard in Owatonna, MN. I love you.