Lonely Lullaby

Basically if you have heard this song by Owl City, there is no explanation necessary for a blog. But since almost all of the people I know don't like him, I might as well tell the story of the saddness I recently felt. There's always that one person who meant the world to you and you loved them for them. They will always at least have some of your heart, just because they used to own all of it. They told you they loved you, they said that you were their heart. They quoted your favorite songs with you and shared the likes of many. They texted you every night despite their busy schedule just to remind you how amazing you were and that you were a dream come true to them. They would blush when you talked to them and told you how perfect you were. And he called me his darling. Those words get me everytime. I just wish there was some way I could go back to that, back to the unbearable days at school, only to come home to see the messages from him. The only things that made me smile. It's hard to even think that it was real because it's not everyday when I get someone almost perfect to love me. Of course, it's always deceiving. After months of talking to the most wonderful person I had met at the time, (and now still) I come to find us completely separated and never talking. The worst thing you could imagine happened and he moved on. But I didn't. I didn't for a long time. It hurt, but I knew that no matter what, if he was happy with some girl, then I would be happy for him. He deserves happiness no matter how much it killed me inside. I still haven't completely forgotten about him and probably never will. But I'm stronger now. It wasn't easy, but when you have a best friend like Christiane, it's hard NOT to feel better. She was one of the only people to give advice or even care about the thoughts that I vented on and on about to her. And I know that she will always have my back, like I have hers. Sure I'll always miss him and how perfect he was... is. All I can remember is that if it didn't work out, this is not the plan that God has for me and He must be waiting to put someone new in my life. He'll always mean so much to me, but more as a friend now. But like the great Adam once said "But now those lonely lullabies just dampen my tired eyes, because I can't forget you, because I can't forget you..." However, he also said "There's a bright light up ahead and help is on the way." And help will come.♥

Brief Welcome

Hi! I guess this means you're reading my blog! I've never had one before, so I'll try to keep up with this and figure it out! Basically, I write about things happening in my life or things I WISH could happen in my life, hence the name of my blog. As I post more blogs, you can probably find out a lot about me, like the fact that I'm a complete nature freak and I use metaphors from Owl City songs. I've had my heart broken a couple times, but I'll live and that's what makes me stronger. I write pretty deep, but I hope everyone enjoys it!^__^